PTSD And Other Shenanigans


Had a 2 hour telehealth appointment. I’m told all symptoms point to PTSD. Makes sense.

I drag around a trunk of unresolved traumas, both new and old. Not because I’m sadistic, because I’ve been trying to resolve things on my own without professional help.

I’ve also written things off. “Oh, that was so long ago, I’m over it. There’s no way THAT is still having an effect on me.”

I’ve found pockets of relief here and there, but nothing substantial.

Seeing as I have a plethora of coping mechanisms already in place they are putting me in their healing trauma program. The sessions will also be via telehealth.

I’m thankful for what feels like some answers and direction.

We are down to 10 days until tent life begins. What a perfect accompaniment to the healing process.

23 thoughts on “PTSD And Other Shenanigans

  1. I hope you find some peace in those visits.
    I’ve gone through a fair share of things in my life and most of the time I just “deal with it.” More and more often, I heard about traumas manifesting themselves years into the future when you think all those things are fiiiiine. It scares the crap out of me…

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    • It feels as if there’s no rhyme or reason. I like to beat myself up telling myself things like “ get your shit together mare, you’re not the only one who’s gone through hard times.” Obviously that’s not helpful 🙃 well I sincerely hope nothing rears it’s ugly head for you. I hope I can use all of this to help others

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  2. You know I worry about this whole tent thing. Is it going to be a tent with wifi? Or will you have to travel to nearby hotspots to continue the telehealth sessions- which, by the way, sound like a good thing.
    At the very beginning of this pandemic, I heard an interview with a psychologist who warned that it would make all sorts of old (buried, forgotten, repressed) crises, traumas, conditions, etc. resurface in people and institutions. Now, after two months of seeing this happen all over the place, I think this woman was some kind of genius.

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    • We will most likely have to travel for wifi. I think we can use our phones to create hotspots. No need to fret! Yes, that psychologist was a freakin genius. Pulled the rug out from under me, didn’t see it coming.


  3. I’m glad you’re happy with your treatment plan and have the support you need to heal PTSD. I think it’s brave of you to get professional help. Therapy transformed my life and I’ll always be grateful for that.

    Do you anticipate having trouble driving out of state with the shelter in place restrictions? I’ve read that some campers are experiencing hostility due to the Covid19 crisis at the moment. Under normal circumstances the tent arrangement would be ok, but I’m worried about the current situation. Please be careful and stay safe!🙏🏽

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  4. The old adage that time heals all wounds is an over-simplification. Yes, given enough time, we can often work through even terrible experiences, but it doesn’t happen automatically. I hope this program will help to ease your processing. ❤

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  5. I have been dealing with PTSD for a while, and I hope your treatment goes well. There are many treatment options, but I found EMDR helpful. A good book that I am grateful people told me about is The Body Keeps the Score. It made me feel less alone and different. I also completely understand the urge to pack up and live in a tent. It’s a long journey, but taking back control and healing is completely worth it.


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