Shazam! I need a break from the beer virus.
It’s been 4 days since my last Ketamine infusion and I’m noticing some delightful things.
I’m sitting here in jeans and a flannel.
This is a big WTF moment.
My WHOLE life, when at home, it’s pj’s all day, no exceptions, sick or not. I used to think people were nuts being at home in everyday street clothes. Jase has known me just shy of 4 years and he can testify to the many times I would look at him and feel scratchy because he was on the couch in jeans.
Today, I was dying to get out of my cozies and into clothing. I also put on some jewelry and braided my hair.
Another thing is I haven’t drank any alcohol.
I had 4 infusions and was tripping balls for 4 days straight, no alcohol needed.
Post ketamine, I don’t want any. Many WTF moments. I’m not a huge drinker but was having at least 2 drinks per night………and maybe a weeee bit more on Sunday’s…….mimosas!
I feel motivated and energetic. I have walked a mile outside each day since the infusions. 2 of those walks were pain free! The other 2 not so much, but that’s ok.
With the nature of my jobs I get about 25 to 35 hours a WEEK of light to moderate to intense exercise. I think the base recommendation is 3.5 hours a week……anyhoo I’m happy to be feeling like doing something other than nursing my wounds during my down time.
My brain can’t pick up it’s old thinking patterns. It doesn’t feel like ruminating on anything. Having cleaned a home yesterday, my body is feeling some discomfort but my mind is saying “who the fuck cares! Life is too short to think about it.”
I’ll meet with the CBT therapist this week if the beer virus doesn’t cancel the appointment. I’m looking forward to picking his brain about ways to keep my own brain headed in this direction.
There’s a lightness to my thinking. I’m not sure if my mind has ever felt this relaxed.
Everyone responds differently to ketamine. So far I’m enjoying the ride.