Bloom Baby Bloom: Ketamine Day 4

Saw this beauty before my infusions started…spring!

I slipped and fell on my way to the car at 6 am yesterday.

It had been raining and the deck looked wet. It was pure ice and I went down hard on my right side. It’s laughable really. Headed to Ketamine to treat pain. All one can do is laugh.

With traffic we drove close to 2 hours to the clinic that had hijacked my infusion. They are affiliated with my original clinic. Lo and behold they are in the middle of a move as well.

Miss cranky pants with the yellow aura from my second infusion was there. I could feel her embarrassment when she saw us and I didn’t want it to turn into hardness. At the end of this infusion as I was coming out of it I was determined to speak with her. With my numb face I called to her: Jeminifer….ib yer nabe jeminifer? She came and spoke with us for a long while and she’s quite lovely. I told her about her aura, yellow is joyful and intelligent and felt relieved to look her in the eye and exchange a genuine smile. We found out she has 5 children…….well fuck, no wonder she was in a shit mood the other day.

I had a new doctor. His aura was gray and murky but not scary. I could feel his overwhelming confusion toward life. The gal at the front desk was brimming with pure white light and was a delight.

And my Jase was purple. He’s not a fan of the color purple. Well too fucking bad, purple suits him quite well.

So that’s that. I had 4 infusions this week increasing from 200 mg to 400 mg. And now I wait. They say it can take a couple weeks to see the full effect.

I’m pleased that the primary emotion I felt all week was overwhelming love for myself and for others.

Outwardly life as I know it has not changed, inwardly I know it has.

I’ll leave you with this:

“Before enlightenment; chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment; chop wood, carry water.” — Zen Kōan

16 thoughts on “Bloom Baby Bloom: Ketamine Day 4

    • Well that’s so kind of you 🙂 Nice to meet you! I use guided meditations a lot, I’m not so great at it with out guidance. I really like Anna Thompson, she does hypnotherapy. I found her on Spotify, my favorite is her fibromyalgia relief.

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      • I used to love guided meditation and have a hard time without it, but I’m getting better! But I can’t hear the guided ones any more since losing my hearing. 😕

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      • Yes, I read that when I went to your blog and felt silly for mentioning guided meditations. I’m so sorry about losing your hearing. That had to be quite an adjustment 😦

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      • Thank you. It has been, some days more than others. I started to say it’s not that it hasn’t been that much, but that would be a lie, it’s just some days it feels like it’s not a big deal, other days it’s huge. And don’t feel silly, you can’t tell I’m deaf by the way I type. Hahaha!!!

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